Wednesday, February 4, 2009

I am Unreasonable

I keep getting the feeling that I am unreasonable. I have wild expectations which I just shouldn't be expecting anyone to fulfill. I am demanding too much, I am brainwashed by feminist ideals and overreacting to things that I could ignore or "let go of" if I wanted to.

How I am unreasonable:
-I expect to be listened to, even when my opinions to not line up with most people's. Even when what I say is not what the listener wants to hear.
-I don't want my money to fund the killing of civilians- and yes, that is regardless of race or religion or political affiliation.
-I expect my girlfriend to be treated with some fucking respect as a person, no matter what.
-I expect the same respect for myself, but somehow most people see me as more deserving.
-I want to be able to survive and have access to resources I need even though those in control of those resources devalue the skills and abilities I have.
-I expect my health insurance to pay for things I need without me having to call them multiple times to convince them that they are obligated. In other words, I expect their business to provide the service they are promising.
-I want to be educated about people besides white heterosexual males in history. I want this in public school, in K-12 schools, not just for those who decide they are interested in alternative viewpoints and have the privilege of going to college.
-I refuse to believe that women are treated equally in our society, no matter how many men tell me so.
-I refuse to believe that what most people do is my only option. I refuse to let capitalism kill my spirit, I refuse to sell my soul, and I refuse to ignore those being exploited just because an ocean (or financial differences) separate us.

This may seem like a rant. I suppose I am angry and using this as a means to get some of that anger out. But really what I'm trying to figure out is what is so unreasonable about my stance on things. Why am I considered radical... why am I told over and over that I don't know enough about the world or "how things are" to criticize the bullshit I deal with every day? Is it because I am critical in ways that threaten people? I'm tired of having to question myself every time someone questions me, while my questions are written off as being unreasonable.

Does anyone else have unreasonable expectations? Do share!