I am Unreasonable

I keep getting the feeling that I am unreasonable. I have wild expectations which I just shouldn't be expecting anyone to fulfill. I am demanding too much, I am brainwashed by feminist ideals and overreacting to things that I could ignore or "let go of" if I wanted to.

How I am unreasonable:
-I expect to be listened to, even when my opinions to not line up with most people's. Even when what I say is not what the listener wants to hear.
-I don't want my money to fund the killing of civilians- and yes, that is regardless of race or religion or political affiliation.
-I expect my girlfriend to be treated with some fucking respect as a person, no matter what.
-I expect the same respect for myself, but somehow most people see me as more deserving.
-I want to be able to survive and have access to resources I need even though those in control of those resources devalue the skills and abilities I have.
-I expect my health insurance to pay for things I need without me having to call them multiple times to convince them that they are obligated. In other words, I expect their business to provide the service they are promising.
-I want to be educated about people besides white heterosexual males in history. I want this in public school, in K-12 schools, not just for those who decide they are interested in alternative viewpoints and have the privilege of going to college.
-I refuse to believe that women are treated equally in our society, no matter how many men tell me so.
-I refuse to believe that what most people do is my only option. I refuse to let capitalism kill my spirit, I refuse to sell my soul, and I refuse to ignore those being exploited just because an ocean (or financial differences) separate us.

This may seem like a rant. I suppose I am angry and using this as a means to get some of that anger out. But really what I'm trying to figure out is what is so unreasonable about my stance on things. Why am I considered radical... why am I told over and over that I don't know enough about the world or "how things are" to criticize the bullshit I deal with every day? Is it because I am critical in ways that threaten people? I'm tired of having to question myself every time someone questions me, while my questions are written off as being unreasonable.

Does anyone else have unreasonable expectations? Do share!

reflection 2008, onwards to 2009

2008
8 good moments
spring break, walking across toronto to & fro the deerhoof concert
graduation dinner for cory w/ fay & co.
bike ride e. lansing to charlevoix








exploring the abandon cinema

fall alleycats & group rides

finally going to the msu planetarium!!
fl family vaction, disney world the "happiest place on earth"












all times spent star gazing, listening to friends, holding hands, late night walks, and appreciating trees in the fall

8 bad moments

the start of 2008
working elff as a sleep deprived, dehydrated projectionist, ergh
not biking to or.
summer classes
getting out of my lease
certain parts of august and september but you guys got me thru it
having a sinus infect
having a sore throat from mono and not being able to sleep & then sleeping to much (but that wasn't all that bad)


2009
wishes & goals
EAT BETTER. i stopped cooking since moving into the co-ops so as to not deal w. the kitchen & the boredom of eating alone. prepare a week's worth of salad at a time, ect.
TRY NOT TO BUY NEW THINGS. i have too much of everything. i need to downsize so that one day i can move across the country with ease.
DEAL W/ PASSIVITY BY HAVING SOME DAMN ENTHUSIASM. just that. partake in my own life, don't zone out when conversations are happening around me. smile & say hello.

live freely, openly, happily, and without consideration of convention
go abroad
find a home
find a job
adopt a pet (netherland bunny or mini potbelly pig!!)